Can't sleep

It's 1:30 a.m.

I hear HIM in my dreams and I can't sleep. 

So, just in case my dreams are accurate I'll answer his question. 

No, I won't forget you. 

I just want you to be happy. 

I'm here for you no matter what.

I bought you a Birthday/Christmas gift, just in case we run into each other again.  I'm wary about it, though because it was on the clearance rack and it may be dried out but when I saw it, it seemed like something you should have.  It is a travel paint kit that you can put in your backpack while hiking.  I could only find a watercolor one.  I'm on the prowl for an oil set, a pencil set, and a pastel set.  You wrote about the beauty of diving but that you couldn't convey what you saw.  You're so talented, this is one way you can share the beauty of your perceptions. 

I know I'll run into you again...the universe won't let me run away too far or too long.  I admit to hiding from you in stores in the 90's.  Forgive me...I knew it was you.  I was afraid to face you because of what happened to me when we parted.    

Oh, there are other creepy questions in that damn dream.  So...here goes. 

No, don't you dare look for anyone like me.  Don't marry another redheaded fat woman that looks like me.

That did not go very well, did it? 

Our relationship didn't go very well either...

Stop!!!

Go out and find the exact opposite.  Get someone hotter, younger, and sexier. 

I'll still be here old friend.  We have love born out of friendship, not the kinds of things men really want.... like lust.  You might think you want someone who loves you, who understands you, who remembers who you really are despite your great acting like a negative nancy in public.  I know who you are and wish you'd stop being someone else. 

We're going to be friends no matter what...but anything more than that with me will bore the holy crap out of you.  Look at it this way, if you didn't want me when you were a hormone ridden teenager, you won't want me like that now....

Does that help? 

It helps me when you look at me with that filthy grin.  I tell myself the same thing.  He didn't want me then, he doesn't want me know.  Try it!! It works a heck of a lot better than ice water!! 

It sucks being psychic. 

I've had dreams of the death of my nemesis, the lawyer who allowed the harassment of my family to occur.  The truth is that I'm too afraid to publish that lest people think I'm responsible.  He dies due to an illness pertaining to the build up of toxins in his body.   I do see that he is planning to retire in the very near future which may help with the healing process. 

I really do not want him to die as I realize now that I wouldn't know what to do without his antics; the creepy legal eagle amuses me.   Any candles lit for him are lit with prayers of healing. 

When I dreamt of my ex's boss's car crash, I tried to warn her in this blog.  The lawyers told me she was stalking my blog.  It didn't matter, though.  The crash happened.  Two months later, a former employee she fired called to say she had a stroke and got hurt.  I had legions of witches praying for her health.

I do tell people my predictions with the warning; it's only fiction until it happens.  Please do everything in your power to make the negative things I see fiction.

The problem is that few people listen until it is too late.

Love,

S.