Things Are Getting Scary

A woman strikes a man to be heard - a man strikes a woman to quiet her.

-Pastor John Hagee

I don't know what to do. 

I'll never understand why a man would want a woman to share a house with him if there is no intimate relationship or if they can't talk.

When I try to resolve the issue with him and find out what he needs, or try to arrange a date to leave the house, he makes violent gestures towards me. 

I'm getting to the point of severe anger.  I really need to leave before someone gets hurt.  I get the sense that this is going to end very badly with violence.  

I wish I had someone to talk to. 

I don't want to leave him with all of the responsibility and no means to get things done but he isn't cooperating with me enough to make the transition smooth. 

I don't know what to believe.  All I know is that I'm scared.  I don't trust him.  I'm afraid I'm going to hurt him.  I've never been this angry at another human being before. 

I need to move....now!

We have options to make things easier but he has to work with me. 

I'm terrified to talk to him. 

Please pray for me. 

Love ya,

S.

I want to make sure this is documented somewhere just in case something happens.  I did hide most of the posts on this blog again.

I am confused.   I don't know if he's lying to me or if he's the victim of a conspiracy.  I don't know if his former boss was targeting me or targeting him.   I don't know why the things he says never pan out to be true.  It seems like he's telling the truth but...in the end I find out he's lying. 

Could he have a brain tumor or other issue?  Do I have to stick around to find out?

I don't know what is going on with the money.  I don't know what I need to do if I stay or if I leave.

I'm trying to piece the past fifteen years together.  There are so many lies and now I'm finding myself completely confused and scared.  It hit me that things are not what they seem and I don't know who to trust. 

I'll try to get some sleep.  It's been lacking as of late. 

Something is wrong.  I can sense it. 

I want to leave but there has to be a way to do this in a way that doesn't harm a soul...right?

Right? 

Damn....