Fairy Tales

Hey....I believe in fairy tales. 

Yep! 

Do you know why? 

There is always a wicked crone, an evil, vain, jealous, nasty female character who is running around making bad, selfish, powerful boys pay.  Men don't get to rescue her.  She gets to torment, tease, and make their lives a living hell. 

That's me on a good day. 

At least that's what people think....

Ha...

The truth is that I wish I could pull that one off....maybe if I learn to soften my glare, a little.

I don't want to be evil.  No one does.  What starts off as white magic, tends to go black in the presence of selfishness and evil.  Evil darkens everything it touches.  The worst evil is often perpetrated by those who think they are acting out of purity and goodness.

Stupid men pass laws to impose their morality on other people and, in their shortsightedness, they cause poor people to starve to death, small business owners to go under, and people to lose their homes. 

Power corrupts, even if one tries to use it for the good of others. 

This was my lesson from politics. I'm being asked to go back into it. 

I don't know....
When I was a kid, I wanted to be a famous musician.  Then, I began to write hypnotic stories and wanted to be a famous author.  I've been published (won't dare tell you where and when).   I liked writing and wanted to continue but then the city lawyers started bugging me.  I never thought I'd get my taste of celebrity due to my propensity to whine and complain. 

I've been trying to get out of here for four years.  Stupid economy...stupid exes that can't replace me....stupid exes that can't let me move on.....

I'm living the life of a teenager...no sex...lots and lots of chores...and do you know what is funny?  The man in the basement decided to give me an allowance!  Yeppers, I get $20 every two weeks and I usually spend it at the store that supports battered women buying homemade crafts and toys for the kids. 

How funny is that? 

I'd be offended but it makes me giggle too much.  I never got to be a teenager...I had to work and support myself.  I kinda feel like Merlyn, I'm living my life freakin' backwards!!

I need to leave before I go insane. 

Still....maybe I should stay here just so I can torment the politicians again. 

I mean the shadow side of the magician archetype usually forces someone to pay; I want them to atone for abusing the citizenry.  Maybe it fits for someone like me. 

Or I could just curse the crap out of them and move. 

I've stocked up on black candles and, quite sadly, the white ones too. 

Yeah....

I think, right now, I'm torn between being the fairy godmother or the wicked witch: maybe I can be both, fairy godmother to the families and wicked in the eyes of the big brotherish good ol' boy establishment. 

This is my reality. 

I can be Maleficent or an attendant to the Goddess of the Dawn. 

Decisions....

decisions....

decisions.....

Maybe I need to be a bit of both. 


Love ya, 

S.