Little control freaks...

Sunshine, go away today

I don't feel much like dancing

Some man's come he's trying to run my life

Don't know what he's asking

Working starts to make me wonder where

Fruits of what I do are going.....

He can't even run his own life,

I'll be damned if he'll run mine--

Sunshine...

~ Jonathan Edwards

Sunshine

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It is so much easier for insecure people who cannot deal with their own issues to try to control the activities of others. Through controlling others, the insecure person becomes too distracted to focus their own problems.

Then, though, the control itself becomes a problem.

Control suffocates love. There is no love without freedom. The death of the relationship is the ultimate outcome.

Always...no matter how much one acts.

For me, the memory of what love felt like was enough to propel me away from such a situation.

That changed me.

I remember the beautiful feeling of unconditional love and acceptance.

To tell the truth, it was so much easier dealing with the numbness and an inability to feel.

I wish I never awakened that part of myself.

Well, it's too late, now.

It's done.

I guess I'd better roll with it.