Saturday, October 22, 2011

Life is Too Short

My ex says that he wants me to stay in this house.  If I do that, I need to bring money into the house just to pay the mortgage.  This would involve talking to him about ways to do that.  He walked away. 

Why?  Oh...

I finally get it!

He must truly want me to leave!!   The man doesn't want to be the bad guy so he's trying to get me to leave. 

I mean over the course of the past few years I've discovered that...
  • He won't bathe.
  • He won't clean up after himself; legal documents from the city litter the basement floor.  I am half tempted to scan them and post them all online in my anger at being blamed for his job loss.
  • He throws his garbage all over the house to the point it stinks.
  • He gossips about me.
  • He won't talk to me.
  • He walks away from important conversations pertaining to financial planning and money.
  • He won't cooperate with me and will tell me this much.
  • He won't look for a full-time job.
  • He won't cooperate enough for me to hold a job; something will always happen to keep me here.
  • He gained over 100 pounds over the course of the past three years.  He wasn't thin to begin with.  I've never seen him under 330 pounds.  He went from a 42" waist to 54". 

It's the last one that really, really bugs me.  If he has gained that much weight just to turn me off, it could potentially kill him. 

The most compassionate thing I could possibly do is start packing. 

I am running for the highest elected office in the city in which I live.  I did this as a political favor to someone.  It was completely unrelated to any experience I had with the city: I owed someone a favor and took the opportunity to repay it.

After announcing my intentions to run, I was harassed mercilessly by a city attorney.  A couple of weeks later I received an email from my ex's former boss.  The email claims she fired him for being fat.

Over the course of the past few years, the lady slandered me to no end, she's had her boyfriend (a local cop) harass me to the point I felt paranoid, and she has threatened my business to the point I have to rent an office in another jurisdiction just to give away my work for free.  

She originally claimed she fired my ex because I had a master's degree and because she thought I was battered.  I've never met this woman in my life.  If she fired her employee due to his weight, she should have simply said that.  That's better than firing him over gossip about me.  She should never have invoked me during his termination process nor should she have brought me up in the unemployment hearing.

I am thankful she has stayed quiet throughout the campaign.  I was only quizzed once in a forum about a payout but I think I handled it well.  I have been trying to solicit the public to accept workplace changes that will benefit my husband's former boss and other employees.  I've contacted the unions and asked the front runner to look at making changes. 

I haven't yet spoken about the $450,000 quotas the department has; rather I'm focusing on getting the politicians to commit to getting rid of certain taxes and fees that drive business out of the city.  After the campaign, I'll start publishing the information I have about the quotas and the remarks made from former auditors talking about how they were told to bend the rules to meet those quotas.  Bending the tax code has chased many small businesses out of our city. 

One of the things that the voters want is an increase in jobs and tax revenue; we could do that by ending the tax licensing/audit department's war on small business.

There is a reason to my madness but, I do, find myself speechless at the city building.  It's like my mind blanks out when I feel the emotion of being lied about by the city lawyers.   It is difficult for me to face the people who destroyed my life with their slander.  The more I give speeches in the building, the easier it becomes. 

As far as my ex...unless he starts talking to me soon, I will be forced to move out. 

He needs to forgive me for his perception that I cost him his job at the city. 

I can't stay in a house with someone fighting such dark demons. 

If the darkness can't yield to the light, I am going to have to leave.

Life is too short.

Love,

S.

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