Same Old Tune

After all these years, I still sing the same stupid song.

Please don't tell anyone or it would be a scandal.

I'm fortunate in that I'm going gray, getting wrinkled and know that you will no longer find me pretty enough. That's the thought that keeps me from betraying the truth. I'm too old now. I'll tell that to myself as long as it keeps me from being stupid....someday I'll forget.

It's amazing. Look at all the crazy things I do just so I don't have time to miss you. Now, if only I could fill those moments I wake up crying in the dark hours of the morning after dreaming of you.

Eventually senility or death will take care of that.

The truth is that this isn't the life I wanted. I do not want to do what I am doing; I'm just keeping a promise.

I pray you find the one you desire and live the life of your dreams.

Love ya,

S.